{"id":1230,"date":"2020-10-10T17:15:31","date_gmt":"2020-10-10T17:15:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.themigrainediet.com\/?p=1230"},"modified":"2020-10-10T17:18:34","modified_gmt":"2020-10-10T17:18:34","slug":"stability","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.themigrainediet.com\/?p=1230","title":{"rendered":"Stability"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

I realized this morning that I\u2019m stuck.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m stuck and I\u2019m breaking, trying to make sense of the world amidst the chaos of every day; the financial anxiety (how long can we hold out like this?), concern for the future (is this year, 2020, an indicator of the world we have to look forward to?), personal disappointments (the never-ending quest to reconcile the complexities of identity and fitting in) and on, and on. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It feels as though I should be doing more, as though I should be getting out in the world, changing it for the better and ensuring my place as a contributing member of society. I\u2019m looking for a way to stabilize what\u2019s happening around me, and after years as a freelance creator, the one thing I keep returning to (because this is what I\u2019ve always been told), is that getting a \u2018real job\u2019 will make me feel better; that joining the status quo will make everything more manageable. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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So I imagine myself out in the world, working a regular schedule and living a \u2018normal\u2019 life (as normal as can be, right now). And it feels good and it\u2019s exciting and I think- yes! this is the change I need. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

And then I remember, (how could I forget?), the migraines. The migraines that are the darkness hiding in every scene of my adult life, the roadblock to every plan. I\u2019ve forgotten, and how could I? There is no regular in my days and I can\u2019t fix anything by taking on a \u2018normal\u2019 role in the world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And though I know there are many others who are in the same boat, what I see, (all I see), is the successful people of my community, adapting to their limits and making the best of the bad, moving forward and prospering, getting on and carrying on. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m disappointed in who I\u2019ve become, lost and unsure, wondering what essential skill or quality of character or strength I lack, that I can\u2019t carry on as the rest of the world does. And I have no answers today. But I\u2019ll keep looking for now; working to make the best of the bad, move forward, prosper, and get on and carry on with this life, amidst the chaos of every anxious and concerning everyday.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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